The last couple weekends have been the same as always. PartyPartyParty, DrinkDrinkDrink, FunFunFun. After so many weekends of this it tends to get repetitive. Don't get me wrong I always have a blast and everynight is just as fun as the last, but there is just one little issue. Inevergethitonbyguys. At first I blamed it on the fact that most of my friends are guys so I'm always surrounded by them & I have come to the conclusion that this generation of "men" will not go up to a girl if they are surrounded by other dudes. Weird logic but absolutely true. Then I started to think it was me. (Maybe I'm to short, fat, not hot enough)... After I
stopped drinking so much came to my senses , I knew that possibly couldn't be true, so I'm sticking back to it being the "surrounded by guy friends" theory. Anyways, point is that I am now at my loneliest point in my single hood & not a lot of guys are hunting down some of this good ol' action & it's starting to piss me offffff. In the end though, I always come to the conclusion that I definitely should stop forcing about it, caring about it so much, & just let it happen. Thus starting back at one -.-
Now don't get me wrong, there is that occasional brave loser who will come up to me and ask for my digits, or try to be Mr. Smooth guy... but that's just it. LOSERS. What ever happened to a nice, smart, non loser, good looking guy? Why they gotta be all Lsquared?! Ain't nobody got time for that.
Since I've been single there have been the on and off crushes & the "Hey, who is that?!" But none of them work out. It usually plays out like this, We start talking & they go back to their ex, We start talking & we stop talking, Finally meet him and he turns out to not even be of legal drinking age, or Finally breaks up with his girlfriend but isn't ready for anything. These may or may not be true stories...
In the end, I am content and I am happy with my life at this very moment. I believe that the choices and decisions I have made have led me to where I am exactly suppose to be. I don't need a man to define my purpose in life or anything like that. (I believe that is exactly the same thing a lonely single girl would say. Thank god I am not one of them. Right? -.- ) In all honesty, I really don't want a boyfriend right now. I don't believe I am ready for that type of commitment just yet. Plus I am having to much fun anyways... but a little dude action would be nice every now and then -.-
yuhp, I just went there. ♥